the past that i cant let go..

are u especially vulnerable

when ur loved one is not around u?


nights are hard to get by,

without e usual morning smses,

without e familiar voice that u used to hear daily,

without e support that u can lean on,

without his presence in my life..

i felt so lonely..esp during e nights.


dunno is it the 5 days without good slps..

that made me more emotional.

or the things i've been thinking of..

so many uncertainty in my life.

e path i wanna take.


doing the things i love to,

or doing the things that ppl ard me expect me to..?

dunno,not sure..



be back soon..i need ur advice.
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**need to learn to be more independent.**



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if i can, i wan to be


someone that can influence..

someone that pursue her dreams..

someone that will risk..

someone that care less about wat others might think..

someone that dare to try e unknown.

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read one of my frens' blog recently.


sometimes, trust is v.important in a relationship.

but yet at times i failed to .




is it all e rejections n betrayals from ppl

that i once trusted n respect.

that made me in this way..?

when u trust in people that u loved,

ur innocence that they can take advantage of

things they did to u that is unforgivable.


bitterness that i cant let go,

forgiveness that i wouldnt have,

i just cannot forget.




i know it's unfair to him..

i'll try..

for his sake ..i will.

try to learn to trust ppl again in my life.



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friend...you CAN do it!

yipee! darling coming back soon.
from his holidays,taiwan
with his two good frens. =)

cant wait to see him,
cos he's away for 6 days le.

well, this is of cos nothing
compared to his two-month exercise in Australia..
that period of time should be one of the loneliest day
in my life.haha..

still he made an effort to call me
everyday. =)
all the overseas calling
amt to 4oo for him and 200 for me.
the price to pay..
BUT it's worth it anyway.hee..

sometimes, it's time like this that
made couples cherished each other even more.
and of cos,
our love just grew stronger after that.

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last night.. before i turned in,
i just tot of one of my closest friends.
she's facing some kinds of challenges in her work.

she's someone that is always there for me,
encouraging me,supporting me
during the toughest patch of my life..
when no one was there..she was.

anyhow, just wanna you to know that
i'm believing in u.
that u can n WILL definitely overcome this problem.
=) jiayou!
i will support u in watever u do.
know that it might get tough,
but when the situation is tough,
the tough' get tougher.

things that cant kill us,
will only make us stronger.

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