the past that i cant let go..

are u especially vulnerable

when ur loved one is not around u?


nights are hard to get by,

without e usual morning smses,

without e familiar voice that u used to hear daily,

without e support that u can lean on,

without his presence in my life..

i felt so lonely..esp during e nights.


dunno is it the 5 days without good slps..

that made me more emotional.

or the things i've been thinking of..

so many uncertainty in my life.

e path i wanna take.


doing the things i love to,

or doing the things that ppl ard me expect me to..?

dunno,not sure..



be back soon..i need ur advice.
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**need to learn to be more independent.**



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if i can, i wan to be


someone that can influence..

someone that pursue her dreams..

someone that will risk..

someone that care less about wat others might think..

someone that dare to try e unknown.

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read one of my frens' blog recently.


sometimes, trust is v.important in a relationship.

but yet at times i failed to .




is it all e rejections n betrayals from ppl

that i once trusted n respect.

that made me in this way..?

when u trust in people that u loved,

ur innocence that they can take advantage of

things they did to u that is unforgivable.


bitterness that i cant let go,

forgiveness that i wouldnt have,

i just cannot forget.




i know it's unfair to him..

i'll try..

for his sake ..i will.

try to learn to trust ppl again in my life.



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